I can only get so behind

I hear it time and again, "This is your project".  You can do whatever you want.  There are no time limits, schedules, or anything that you must abide.  It's up to you.  You can change whatever you choose".  Those are words I've heard and while I agree in some part, I do have goals.  I also think it's important to create some reality amidst a fantasy.  Yes, me getting to play parts in all of these films is a dream but being responsible for their completion in a timely and professional manner is the lesson and that's what I'm here to do ... learn.

Why the random film choices?  Actors do not get to choose the films that are handed to them.  We don't get to select which commercials we are in, they just come to us.  An agent, casting director, producer, writer approaches us and either hands us a script for an audition or offers us the role but we have NOTHING to do with what they hand us.  So, while we would prefer a role that is what we've always imagined and dreamed of in terms of size, content, laughs and tears, that NEVER happens and I didn't want to unfairly create that when it's such a greater challenge to do whatever is put in front of you.  So, I picked all of my films with my eyes closed and wildly pulled tiny folded pieces of paper that would reveal my A to Z calendar.  As the time has passed I've had to make changes.  The G scene, remember that fiasco?  I was swapping wild cards in and out of that slot like shoes with a new dress but it was way less fun.  I wish I could say that was the only letter that was less than cooperative.

Then there's the date thing.  The first scene was aired for viewing on February 14 and my every intention is for the last scene to be aired exactly one year later.  With that said, if one scene gives me trouble, like the G scene or the K scene or now the M scene, it throws off the entire schedule.  I will NOT flex on the final date.  Maybe no one else refers to A to Z as The Love Project but I do and so it shall end on February 14.  Of course I want each scene to get it's due, to have it's well deserved promotion and to have it's opportunity to get those hits on the youtube channel, but when they get all smooshed together because of crazy scheduling, it makes it difficult for that to take place. 

Why am I telling you all of this?  Just to say that I'm feeling a bit behind and I know that I must get the edit of the M scene done pronto if not sooner.  I can't get Dev to return my calls and I'm beginning to feel like a nag.  I do not like that feeling.  It's not my style.  I get the whole busy thing.  I get the tired thing.  I even get the hit the wall thing but unfortunately for the M scene there is only one answer, Devon.  So, Dev if you're reading this, give a girl a call, woncha?  You would call Meryl Streep back, wouldn't you?  Gosh, I hope so.