So much learning to do and all the time in the world to learn it!

Yesterday was the K re-shoot.  Here's what's so interesting to  me.  I've heard actors say, after an audition, "of course I thought of more ways to do the role better after I left" and I've always considered myself a fortunate one.  I love auditioning and performing and I'm blessed enough to think of what to do and many ways to do it right in the moment when I need to think of it.  I have never experienced that regret of not being able to tap into another idea or character choice when in the situation EXCEPT for yesterday.  Not only did I not tap into it, I didn't even entertain the idea of another choice.  To say that's unlike me is putting it mildly.  I used to do this routine with my students with simple phrases like, how are you.  I would ask them to say it several ways and inevitably they couldn't think of too many ways to say it.  I would say if you consider saying it to different people it would change automatically and then I would tell them a million ways, situations, other factors that could change your intonation of those words.  So where was my own brilliant advice yesterday when I was scrambling to do a performance that was only ONE interpretation of the character?  It was bizarre!

I didn't even realize that I was being so limited in the moment.  I was merely trying to execute a specific performance and basically being disappointed that I felt I was falling short.  Live and Learn and learn and learn.  Gosh, it's like I'm in the school of life and yesterday I got an F but my assessment is an A. So I guess I got a C.

JKL are all either edited or being edited and tomorrow will be the unveiling.  OH my!  Let's see my report card then!